I don’t know about ya’ll but I have good days and bad days, emotionally and spiritually. Today had all of the implications of being a good day, but somehow it just didn’t make the cut. I treated myself to things today; but that’s just it…they were just material things. The thing is, (sorry for the excessive use of the word thing, it’s only 11pm) before I knew Christ, I mean really knew Christ, material things satisfied me. I could treat myself to some retail therapy and I’d be the happiest little five-foot-three girl walking around the mall there was.
Today was just the opposite. Of course in the moment I was enjoying myself, and I was with a dear girlfriend today so I enjoyed that fellowship time with her, but as soon as the worldly high was over, I was defeated. I overindulged on the things of the world today. Moderation is Biblical ya’ll and sometimes, especially as an entitled y-generation baby myself, we forget that too much of a good thing is a bad thing. Proverbs 25:16 says, “if you have found honey, eat only enough for you, lest you have your fill of it, and vomit it.” Well I have vomited it, and it doesn’t feel good. Here I sit with shopping bags on the floor, freshly painted nails, and a dead spirit. I am sick with a fever from the indulgence and infatuation over things most people could only dream of receiving. I am blessed and I forgot. I am rich and I forgot. I didn’t have enough to fill my cup today. Lord help me and others with a mind like me to see You to fill our cups and not things.
The world tells us, women especially, that beauty and status comes from stuff and…you guessed it…things. I have two questions for you. What did you seek today for happiness? Did you seek the Word? Did you pray? Or did you go to the mall and blow half of your paycheck on things. Did you help someone today? Did you buy someone a drink at Starbucks? Or did you spend an hour on Pinterest eyeing the things you don’t have yet. (For more conviction about social media, see Viewer Discretion Advised.) These are hard questions, but if you spent money on yourself today, I can almost guarantee you’re sitting in the same funk that I am. I wrote down some of the emotions I was feeling after today and I wanted to share them:
Sad, lonely, down, dull, scatterbrained, nonexistent, disgusting, and defeated.
As soon as I wrote down the word defeated, I knew there was something to share with you guys. There’s the connotation of the word defeated that I’ve been using throughout this post, and then there’s Biblical defeat, and I want to talk to you about Biblical defeat for a brief moment. One has a negative connotation and one has a positive connotation.
One of the reasons that the Word of God is available to us is to learn how to defeat the enemy, who is Satan. When we feel defeated, we need to defeat Satan in return. Satan got us into this mess and two can play the defeat game as long as God is on our side. James 4:7 is a verse I’ve been meditating on recently, especially with my battle against anxiety. It simply says, “…Resist the devil and he will flee from you.” Every time I feel an attack approaching I recite this verse in my head. It’s a reminder and a plea. We will never be defeated as long as we resist the devil. We are also given the armor of God that protects us and heightens our fight against the devil. (See Ephesians 6:10-18)
We have all of the means necessary to remain undefeated in this life God has gifted to us, but sometimes, and I suspect, you, like me, will fall into the worldly trap of buying things and envying things to potentially cure your search for happiness. Loved one, let this be a reminder that you will not find your happiness there; only defeat.
*(If you need further biblical proof that overindulgence of a good thing is a bad thing see 1 Cor. 9:25, Gal. 5:13., & 1 Tim. 6:10)
*(Other good verses on defeat: Luke 10:19, Rom. 8:38-39, 1 John 4:4, Isaiah 54:17)